http://ontrich.com/an-apology-and-an-update.html Personal stories from those with experience of trichotillomania - pulling out hair. Sun, 07 Mar 2010 08:59:50 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 http://ontrich.com/an-apology-and-an-update.html/comment-page-1#comment-4210 Penny Roode Thu, 01 Oct 2009 21:20:53 +0000 http://ontrich.com/?p=568#comment-4210 Add: That is my real name. Look me up. Add: That is my real name. Look me up.

]]> http://ontrich.com/an-apology-and-an-update.html/comment-page-1#comment-4209 Penny Roode Thu, 01 Oct 2009 21:18:21 +0000 http://ontrich.com/?p=568#comment-4209 I've been pulling since I was a baby. I was tormented in school by people who were too stupid to realize I had feelings. At home, my mother tried shaming...obviously that doesn't work. My grandfather was the only one who understood. He knew I couldn't help it and was the only one who didn't try to stop me. As a kid, you try to fit in and it's really painful if you can't. As an adult, I really can't give a fuck if people look at me or my hair, because I want to live my life for me, not them. I'll never wear a wig or anything, that's like saying you're ashamed of who you are. I tried for years in my youth to stop pulling and never could. Mainly, my problem with trich is the feeling of helplessness. I've been buzzing my hair since 14. It's helpful to me because I feel like I'm taking some control, and yet I can still pull. Let's face it, people, trichsters like us enjoy pulling. It's relaxing and sometimes I find myself almost in a trance. It's like some mixed-up signal is telling me that it's pleasurable to pull, even if I think it's dumb. But I've grown accustomed to trich and really don't attempt to care anymore. It used to be such a huge part of my life and now I barely notice it. Why put yourself through so much stress for something that you can't stop? It's not life-threatening. Sure, it makes you feel "different", but who the hell cares anyway? We're a planet full of diverse people and cultures and we can be as unique as we want. Parade that goddamn bald head around and be proud. We are awesome, we are beautiful, and we know it! I’ve been pulling since I was a baby. I was tormented in school by people who were too stupid to realize I had feelings. At home, my mother tried shaming…obviously that doesn’t work. My grandfather was the only one who understood. He knew I couldn’t help it and was the only one who didn’t try to stop me. As a kid, you try to fit in and it’s really painful if you can’t. As an adult, I really can’t give a fuck if people look at me or my hair, because I want to live my life for me, not them. I’ll never wear a wig or anything, that’s like saying you’re ashamed of who you are. I tried for years in my youth to stop pulling and never could. Mainly, my problem with trich is the feeling of helplessness. I’ve been buzzing my hair since 14. It’s helpful to me because I feel like I’m taking some control, and yet I can still pull. Let’s face it, people, trichsters like us enjoy pulling. It’s relaxing and sometimes I find myself almost in a trance. It’s like some mixed-up signal is telling me that it’s pleasurable to pull, even if I think it’s dumb. But I’ve grown accustomed to trich and really don’t attempt to care anymore. It used to be such a huge part of my life and now I barely notice it. Why put yourself through so much stress for something that you can’t stop? It’s not life-threatening. Sure, it makes you feel “different”, but who the hell cares anyway? We’re a planet full of diverse people and cultures and we can be as unique as we want. Parade that goddamn bald head around and be proud. We are awesome, we are beautiful, and we know it!

]]> http://ontrich.com/an-apology-and-an-update.html/comment-page-1#comment-3798 Bunny Taylor Mon, 21 Sep 2009 14:05:39 +0000 http://ontrich.com/?p=568#comment-3798 Hi there, I know what you mean by anxious but not in particular sad or depressed. I get the same way too with this strange feeling of apprehension almost, like I am waiting for something to happen(even though I'm not)Perhaps it is due to changes in brain activity preceding a pulling session? I am truly sorry you are having a tough time with pulling at the moment. Good luck on your pull free week. Take care of, and be kind to yourself. Sending you lots of strength and courage. Bunny .-= Bunny Taylor´s last blog ..<a href="http://bunnytaylormemoirs.blogspot.com/2009/09/searching.html" rel="nofollow">Searching</a> =-. Hi there, I know what you mean by anxious but not in particular sad or depressed. I get the same way too with this strange feeling of apprehension almost, like I am waiting for something to happen(even though I’m not)Perhaps it is due to changes in brain activity preceding a pulling session? I am truly sorry you are having a tough time with pulling at the moment. Good luck on your pull free week.
Take care of, and be kind to yourself.
Sending you lots of strength and courage.
Bunny
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