So I have now been pull-free since a week Monday – which means… this is the tenth day! This is possibly the easiest I have found it to go pull free. Except I did think today that I’ve been feeling restless and anxious probably the whole time. I only just started to question whether it could be linked.
I know that pulling hair is sort of like a relaxing thing, calming and comforting. It isn’t always for me, but then that’s probably when it becomes a trance and I am not really thinking about it. I don’t know. But what I do know is that not doing it certainly doesn’t feel comfortable.
So I’ve been finding it hard to concentrate on things lately, just feeling anxious. I’m pushing through it though, and still carrying on pull free for as long as possible.
Hope you are all doing well too!
My name's Penny, and I started OnTrich (a trichotillomania blog) to try and raise awareness about hair pulling, and also as a way to help me deal with my own pulling. I'm a 22 year old girl from the UK and I've been pulling for 12 years. Get in touch if you want to chat or need any help - I love meeting people here.
I find I do not pull in the middle of an anxious, stressful state but after the stress is over. It is kind of like a cocktail at the end of a long day of work…while work may be stressful, I won;t drink on the job obviously! Yet when it is over I enjoy that drink and it relaxes me. I hardly ever drink when I am in the middle of an intense event.
Pulling is like that…it creeps up on me when I think it is safe.
I am mentioning this so that you know to look out for it once you are past an anxious stage!