Pulling My Hair Out More

Most of my blog posts here aren’t all that personal, as I mainly explore a lot of the ideas that I come across on the general subject of trichotillomania. But I think it’s time for a little update!

Basically I have been pulling my hair out a lot more in recent weeks. When I say more, I do not mean pulling out clumps at once. Usually when I pull it is just constantly one or two hairs at a time, but consistent and to the point where it makes my head hurt and also just makes me feel crazy.

Pulling like this all day means I can’t focus on anything. I do believe there’s something in my brain linked to trich that makes concentration really difficult! And then I start to feel guilty that I’m not getting my work done, and that probably spurs me on to pull more.

The other day I was trying to work when I looked down and saw all these curled up hairs on my bed (I like to make them go curly before throwing them away). Just seeing the hairs there really does give me a weird feeling, driving home how much I have pulled in those few minutes or hours.

I don’t know why I get like this. I think it has to do with having a lot on my mind work-wise. But sometimes business can really help me to stop pulling. Ah well, we all know how stupid and hard to understand trich can be! It doesn’t make sense, and there aren’t always patterns when it comes to when you pull and when you don’t